First off: DON’T EVER DELETE ANYTHING YOU WRITE. EVER. NO MATTER HOW TERRIBLE YOU THINK IT IS. Any and all writing is useful, I promise. Make a folder on your computer and stuff the files in there, or keep everything in a notebook, or a box, or a treasure chest. You never know what ideas you may end up using later. You could be throwing away the framework for the Next Great American Novel (TM) for all you know! Old writing is also useful to see how much you’ve improved!
That being said, it’s perfectly fine that you’re not a native English speaker, and I know learning and working in a new language can be frustrating, but don’t let it get to you. Practice and you will get better.
I would recommend that you expose yourself to the language as much as possible. Read often, and you’ll begin to pick up how everything is pieced together. You’re bound to have questions, of course, so finding a buddy who is good at English will help, or really any native speaker. It would help you to check out some grammar resources, and possibly snag a book or two on the subject.
Some Resources I Use:
- Grammar Girl
- Perdue OWL
- The Chicago Manual of Style
- Eats, Shoots, and Leaves
- Strunk and White
- The Guide to Grammar and Writing
- And if you can find it on YouTube: Schoolhouse Rock!
I hope that helps. If anyone else has any good resources for this anon, let me know.